Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Bound For Montana

Enduring the hits that life delivers with a heavy heart and a broken spirit, I am bound for Montana.
Somewhere up there is a place to hide for a bit.

I've got three weeks to brush up, complete the current book and get it published before the harvest job starts.

So I'll go on solitary and alone... 

Sometimes life shines... too often what's shining are the tears running down your face.



Judy said...

Bub, you have my sympathy. All I can say is, from experience, if you just keep putting one foot in front of the other, long enough, you eventually trudge out of the abyss a wiser person. Dinged up, but a wiser person. Hang in there. Hugs.

Sharlotte said...

Oh Brian, I am so sorry for you. I know this won't help, but you have many friends who are praying for you. I can't say I have been there, but you know with my daughter, I am seeing the sadness and hurt left behind. I am here for you my friend if you want to talk either by PM on Facebook, or email, or phone. Let those beautiful mountains in Montana sooth your soul.
Be careful my friend hang in there.

Trobairitz said...

Make sure you take care of yourself while in Montana.

klbexplores said...

So sorry that troubles have come your way. Life just doesn't turn out the way we plan. Hoping you find peace through your journeys, friend.

Ed, Carol and Gopher the dog said...

Very long but I've read it time and again.
April 10, 2006

Dear Crystal,

I'm so sorry to hear that life is getting you down at the moment. Goodness knows, it can be so tough when nothing seems to fit and little seems to be fulfilling. I'm not sure there's any specific advice I can give that will help bring life back its savour. Although they mean well, it's sometimes quite galling to be reminded how much people love you when you don't love yourself that much.

I've found that it's of some help to think of one's moods and feelings about the world as being similar to weather:

Here are some obvious things about the weather:

It's real.
You can't change it by wishing it away.
If it's dark and rainy it really is dark and rainy and you can't alter it.
It might be dark and rainy for two weeks in a row.


It will be sunny one day.
It isn't under one's control as to when the sun comes out, but come out it will.
One day.

It really is the same with one's moods, I think. The wrong approach is to believe that they are illusions. They are real. Depression, anxiety, listlessness - these are as real as the weather - AND EQUALLY NOT UNDER ONE'S CONTROL. Not one's fault.


They will pass: they really will.

In the same way that one has to accept the weather, so one has to accept how one feels about life sometimes. "Today's a crap day," is a perfectly realistic approach. It's all about finding a kind of mental umbrella. "Hey-ho, it's raining inside: it isn't my fault and there's nothing I can do about it, but sit it out. But the sun may well come out tomorrow and when it does, I shall take full advantage."

I don't know if any of that is of any use: it may not seem it, and if so, I'm sorry. I just thought I'd drop you a line to wish you well in your search to find a little more pleasure and purpose in life.

Very best wishes


Stephen Fry