Yep... putting on my Walt Disney, big boy pants and living in denial, with my pretend happy face on... and ignoring reality by "thinking positive" so those looking for mind candy aren't offended.
Had some fun the other day. Was climbing up on the truck to deal with a small issue with my flaky generator. Slipped, lost my grip, lost my balance and stepped back. Had an exciting trip to the ground... landing on my right elbow.
Not so bad. Gee! That was fun!
Of course... now my right arm doesn't work. As in the shoulder is frozen because it separated and also tore up the rotator cuff some. But, I needed a New Challenge! Right? And just in time.
Working colts with one arm is a piece of cake! I'll just think positive and pretend it's all good!
VA emergency took their xrays... now waiting on that fine Federal Medical System to schedule an MRI to determine just how involved the fun and excitement is going to be__ as in__ is surgery required? I do hope so. I SO want to lay around a hospital getting cut on while my horses stand out on the desert waiting for someone to feed them.
Well GEE... isn't THAT positive thinking?!
Let's see... it took nigh on to 18 months in 1975 when I busted that shoulder for it to get back to the "new" 100%... but now, what with 40 years of experience and all... I should be able to heal a Lot Quicker! Right?
Yeah... about that... this old cowboy is screwed. Sorry if that's not positive enough for some folks... but I am quite POSITIVE that I am Quite Screwed. Reality has a way of smacking the playtime nonsense out of your head.
And if recognizing that reality often sucks... and that if for some guys, for reasons unknown, it sucks too damned often... offends you? Tough Nuts.
This isn't about pretending life is all sweetness and light. The life I've lived through has had a lot more struggle and strife than sweetness. Sorry that offends... but it's the damned reality. No way to sugar coat it. No way to ignore or deny it... or any inclination to do that so sensitive disney purists aren't upset.
But I've kept on going... when a lot of others quit and rolled their beds. Of course, that isn't good enough for some folks. It must be done in the manner they dictate. With the phony smile that living in denial brings.
You want sweetness and light make believe? go find Hillary. I'm quite sure she'll sell you all that lying BS you want. I don't have time for that mental pablum...
... so those with the inclination for put downs... save it...
I've got the realities of this life, Running Against the Wind, to deal with... I've been defeated many times. Lost count of the times I've been knocked down... but, I've never ever been beaten.
...putting one foot in front of the other... one. more. time.