Easy to say... More difficult to do. The fears and temptations of this life have a way of worming themselves into your thinking; Even if you know what they look like and stand guard to keep 'em out.
I gotta let ya'll in on a lil' secret. It's a piece of work bein' me.
Oh I know what you all think. What an easy road he's got. He's a purty, witty, really smart Biker Cowboy. A shining piece of masculine art ;)
Well, the the truth is; Not so much!... I'm a walking, talking, convoluted, twisted, tormented, self-confused, double rectified, living, breathing, cursing, contradiction on the hoof.
I admire and lust after silence... yet I talk like a freakin' electrified magpie when I get around people.
I nigh on to worship the untouched high up and lonesome, far country... but the first time I look at a lil' piece of ground, the first thing I think is; "Wouldn't it be sweet to have a cabin right up against that tree line, and live here...
Spying a narrow road, twisting through those quiet mountains makes me hunger to put a rumbling V Twin in the wind, breaking that silence.
I advise long camps.They save money and fuel, and allow you time to calm the spirit and see what's around you better... but they are a torment for me. I'm in such a camp for a few hours, and my eyes are soon on that pass just to the south... wondering what's on the other side...
I look at possessions with disdain... put no value on 'em... as I pay forty bucks a month to store my precious "Junk"... and surf pictures of beautiful machines and trinkets... wishin' I could build a new and fresh rig... adorning it with the trinkets... while I sit at the table and dream of a simpler life... !!!!!!!!!!!!
I talk of peace, compassion and a "Brush it off" mentality... while in the next breath I have to choke down a purple rage that urges me to strangle some fool that subjected me to his/her stupidity.
My intellect... Oh kay... I heard that...all that snickerin' is terrible mean! ... I do have intellect... it's 'round here somewhere, and as soon as I find where I put it... I'll take a picture an' show it to ya!...
So... THAT part of me says one thing... my heart and intuition... tells me another... and when I recently read the words of Steve Jobs... it went off like a Sunday Church bell in my head...
"Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice."
Sometimes I feel like that's what's goin' on... As in; My heart and intuition tell me one thing and then the insidious temptations of the world around me "Drown Out my inner voice" and like a sunfishin' Bronc leave me spinning in thin air, heading for a hard landing.
I'm pretty sure Steve Jobs was no Saint. Plenty of folks can rip on him I'm sure. I've not been a follower of his computers... though my Ipod is one of my most treasured "possibles" ;) I've criticized the business practices of Apple... like I have many if not most corporations...
But, puttin' his many likely faults aside, His words ring with a Truth that is inspiring.
It's time, I think, to shake things up. To get hungry again... To be foolish again...
A Hungry Fool
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just read your artical Brian... you dicribed your self to a T my friend.. was funny to read all i could do was smile. i to listened that video of stev jobs made alot of sense me me also... as for doing some thing foolish... nothing is foolish and look forward to readig it or talking with you about it this winter.
Thanks for posting this great video clip. This is exactly how I feel and why I am hitting the road in 3 weeks. I need to do what is right for me, I have spent too much time taking care of others and doing things their way.
I can't wait to see what comes of this outpouring of truth. Changes, or Backsliding. I sympathize my brother, for I too, have sinned and fell short of the Glory. It's a moving target, you know.
I'll be honest with you Cowboy Brian, half the time I don't know what the hell you talkin' bout. Sure do like reading it though.
Ah, I just used this speech from Steve Jobs with my high school students for a blog activity. I'm anxious to see how they respond to it.
One day you will look back and see how all the dots connect. Until that time just keep making dots. Don't think too much about it all. Live in the moment and trust that it will all make sense one day.
Kerry; You bet, Plenty to talk 'bout this winter! ;)
Teri; Congrats! Payday and time for the reward! :)
Box Canyon; Yeah, taken lots of shots... and makin' lots of holes... but that moving target is a toughie! :)
HoboJoe; Not to worry, I've got that same exact sensation quite a bit! :)
CM; High School Kids... Standing on the diving board, getting ready to dive into the stream... The more that "absorb" His words, the better!
Doc; You know, I had the post mostly written before I saw that clip of Jobs. Kinda odd how well it fit ain't it? Sure helps putting confusions and contradictions into a new perspective don't it? Yes sir. Dot Dot Dot! :)
Okay... yer tho'ts take me hither 'n yon, but I gotta say you entertain me, and make me exercise my two brain cells. Thank you for continuing to post and share you tho'ts.
Great blog Brian!
I know about, and share several of, you contradictory traits. I like expensive trinkets myself, but talk about living a simple uncluttered life. Those don't make us crazy, they just make us interesting. Great read.
Are you a military brat? I am and as much as RVing speaks to the gypsy in me, I have built many fantasy cabins too. Good luck on getting your home fixed and on the road again
Judy, Jana and Fly fish; Thanks! ;) I do my best. Good to know I'm not Crazy... but, "Interesting!" :)
Heather; Not Military brat, unless Disabled Vet,with a bad attitude counts? ;)
It's not really a contradiction - it is the standard by which we measure every location/campsite. "Could we live here" ? And when we say yes, we realize we would have to buy the whole mountain to keep others from encroaching on our "perfect place". And - that sure isn't in the budget!! So, we just keep comin' on back to the favorite places and imagining we live there and "own" the mountain too:)
Snackmaster and Jan
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